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Leap of Faith

on March 30, 2016

It is my intention to pass by the church before going to work to light a candle for Mama. It’s her birthday today and because I have work, I wasn’t able to go home to Iloilo with my sister to celebrate it. It was also my Niece’s Dine with the Chef Event and my Nephew’s graduation day. I really feel sorry and sad about it. I guess this is also the best time for me to reflect even for just a short period of time. I know I have to talk to him (God) solemnly.

I went inside the chapel first. I wanted to pray and cry. Iiyak ko na lahat ngayon. And tomorrow will be a brand new day. Hindi na ako iiyak. That’s a promise to myself.

I asked for God’s guidance, that he will always guide me for whatever path i have to take. I pray to the Lord that he will lead me to make good choices that will allow me to experience the life he intended me to live. I may not understand how everything will work out, but I trust HIM.

I didn’t ask for any specific signs. But I asked him to clear my mind and to show me that I made the right decision. I know and believe that If I ask, he will provide. I have faith in him. I know that my faith is much stronger than my fears. I need this – Leap of Faith as they say. I am doing this to overcome my fears, to reach my goals and dreams. This is for my family and most of all, for myself.

After I prayed, I went to the Shrine beside the Church to light a candle. On the wall I saw that the candles are color coded:

Yellow – Education
Green- Financial
White- Family
Red – Love
Pink – Career

When my husband and I talked earlier, he asked me what exactly I wanted to be. Finally, I had the courage to tell him that all I want is to become a Housewife and an Enterpreneur. I really want to be a Businesswoman and at the same time, a dedicated Wife and Mother.

To my surprise, there were only 4 colors left. There were no more Pink candle. There are indeed a lot of people who pray to have a good career. So, I got 4 colored candles and lit them.

It must be a sign. Yellow candle is for a successful Training next week. I have faith that it will help me become the better person I want to be. Green for Financial Freedom. I don’t need to elaborate that anymore. White for a happy and strong family. That we will always be together to support and love each other. Last Sunday, I was surprised when Aidan showed me his drawing of a family. Mommy, Daddy and Aidan. He was happy and proud to have a complete and happy family. And lastly, Red for love. Love for my family, my friends and love to myself.

When I arrived at work, the moment that I turned on my ipad shuffle, I heard Jordin’s Song – “This is my NOW”.

Allow me to post the Lyrics please. 🙂
There was a time I packed my dreams away
Living in a shell, hiding from myself

There was a time when I was so afraid
I thought I’d reached the end, baby that was then
But I am made of more than my yesterdays

This is my now and I am breathing in the moment
As I look around I can’t believe the love I see
My fear’s behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now

I had to decide, was I gonna to play it safe?
Or look somewhere deep inside, try to turn the tide
And find the strength to take that step of faith?

This is my now and I am breathing in the moment
As I look around I can’t believe the love I see
My fear’s behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now

But I have a courage like never before, yeah
I’ve settled for less, but I’m ready for more
Ready for more!

This is my now and I am breathing in the moment
As I look around I can’t believe the love I see
My fear’s behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now!

I’m living in the moment
As I look around I can’t believe the love I see
My fear’s behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now, this is my now.
I never knew this song until just now. It was my friend who uploaded this song in my player. Must be another sign. 🙂
Lord, thank you for everything. I find comfort in knowing you are always here on my good days and my bad days. You are my stength.

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